Pissed
Seeing as I have nothing better to do with my time at work other than surf the internet, I came across something that has upset me quite a bit. Its been bothering me now for a couple of days, but after today, I've felt bad enough to say something about it.

Never in my LIFE would I think that Britney Spears would EVER inspire me to write an entry, but it has. Lets be honest. Do I like her music now? No. Was I a fan before? Yes, seems like YEARS ago. Does she need TREMENDOUS help? Hell yes. But the fact that the media has been not only insulting her over her appearance at the VMA's, but to every other woman in the world who isnt a size two has made me sick.

Trust me, I HAVE seen her photos of her chomping down a bag of cheetos and other fattening shit in the mags, so its not like Im denying the fact that yes, britney spears isnt as in shape as she was before hand. But to read the comments that people say about her in the news, magazines and television regarding her weight has made me want to hide under a rock and DIE.

According to TMZ.com,"Britney Spears aimed to bring the house down when she opened the MTV Video Music Awards, but instead she just looked like a house."

Now lets compare...



Hmm... doesnt look very much like a house to me, what do u think?

"Spears was stuffed into a spangled bra and hot pants and jiggled like Jell-O as she sleepwalked through the song. She didn't seem to care that she danced like she had a pantload." - New York Post.

Wow... Jello. Thats pretty bad. I mean, I guess because Hollywood and the media's current "Trend" of praising curvacious women and gently discouraging abnormal skinniness is just hypocrasy. Yes! Let's put women who might blow away in the wind on the cover of our magazines and promote eating disorders while normal women with normal weight end up with psychological disorders regarding their self esteem and personal images!

And people wonder why women are so prone to be self-critical about their appearance when all we are given is THIS BULLSHIT! I can guarantee you the same thing wouldnt have happened if this was a man. " Because women need to seem like they're fragile glass!"

Fuck you society! Fuck you Media! YOU are the reason Im stressing over my weight. YOU are the reason why so many girls and women suffer mentally and physically to attain some kind of unhealthy " beauty ideal."

Lets compare Britney Before and After :
Before -


After -


Honestly, if people think that britney spears looks so HORRENDOUS and FAT and GARGANTUAN after how many years of eating fast food and having TWO KIDS, then please let me know so I can shoot myself now. I am right now a size 16 or 18 depending on the brand of clothing, so I can only HOPE and PRAY and DREAM that my body will look like hers after bearing TWO children. Seeing how the media has insulted her over her looks not only makes me feel like I am a giant blimp walking this earth but also that my importance in this world is only attributed to how I look and how much I weigh.

Honestly, I havent watched the VMAS. Im not defending her performance. Im defending her appearance. Im not against weight loss and being skinny. Hell no. Im currently trying my all to lose weight. But I DEFINATELY dont defend the notion that I need to lose enough weight that my BONES stick out from my body and I look like an almost dead, Tim Burton-ized verson of myself. Im against the notion that your beauty is dependant on your waist size. I can GUARAN-DAMN-TY you that my daughter/daughters are NEVER going to feel like they need to be a certain size to feel important. EVER.

So to all the hollywood snubs and idiots who feel that you need to be a size two to be anything in life... Go fuck yourselves.